Happy Birthday to me

Yesterday was my birthday but I didn’t celebrate at all. It doesn’t matter that I am turning 37, but it does matter so much to me that I am on day 284 of chastity. 

I will use this day to remember that I have few dates to celebrate personally way more important than my birthday. 

• Princess Sheridan’s Birthday: March 8.
• Ownership Anniversary: July 21, 2014.
• Chastity Pledge Anniversary: August 22, 2014.
• Princess Sheridan's followed me back: Dec 2, 2013

Now to make things even better. let me tell you these information.

March 8: International Women's Day (IWD) is celebrated on March 8 every year. It commemorates the movement for women's rights.

My Leaky Faucet

I have been facing such an embarrassing problem. A problem that related to being denied for months now. I leak. Yes the precum keeps leaking from my locked up cock.  And it is very embarrassing to feel the wetness in public. To have big spots in my cloths because of my broken dick.

I finally had to tell my owner about this. She said “That's not a problem if it's in relation to being excited about anything to do with Me. That is a worship leak ;)”

Then she gave me a very warm message. She said When that happens, picture My approving smile.” I could stop myself from saying that I love her. 

She said “I know you do. I hope you are leaking precum right now. That's what I want.” 

I must add that the first time Princess engraved this concept in my mind was on On September 6, 2014. when she sent me a DM saying "Poor little Moe...all locked up...leaky faucet."

clip binge & missed chance

When I was running in my 240 days of chastity back in October, I shared with my Owner Princess Sheridan a secret that has been delaying my chance of release. Since I have to order a custom clip to gain that chance, I have been saving up my money but I was thinking that I can’t wait that long without watching her clips. So I wanted to  buy clips from her store and start saving all over again.
I remember that she laughed at this. She kindly allowed it but she wanted me to remember one important rule:

There is not a chance of being let out of chastity until I get a custom.

So when I got my paycheck, I was on my 282 days of chastity. The only thing that was going in my brain that I have one mission: to buy more clips of Princess Sheridan. I went like crazy and did. And when all these new clips were downloading my heart was pounding.

I watched “October Is Locktober For Chastity Bitches” Then I watched “ Jerk Off To Guys From Now On” and I got the worse case of blue balls, I had to message my Owner to tell her. Her answer opened a new door to understand myself better.  She mentioned our October chat and my request back there and She said “But you're not like Yuri. I give both of you the option for a release now and then- but unlike Yuri, you would rather remain chaste. This is still the case?”

Honestly I didn’t know what to say or how to answer such thing. I  replied with the first thing that came into my mind without thinking. “yes Princess”. Then after few seconds I typed this question “does that make me pathetic ?”. Because I felt that way.  She said “That makes you Moe.”

Her answer is deep. It is who am I. I got back to myself and asked this question and the same answer came back to me. Thank you Princess Sheridan.

On the other side of this deep conversation, Princess Sheridan didn’t miss a chance to educate me. She pulled me out of my thoughts and asked me if I think I am more or less pathetic than a fellow that jerks off constantly? Well, at the first I thought more pathetic, then I took a deep break and did think again and my answer was. “Less”. Apparently that was a trick question and I did fail.

I believe that her answer that came next must be a law. She said “do not ever attempt to place yourself above another beta sub. Pride is not something a submissive should experience.”
Even when I thought I am even lower than everyone else she corrected me with her vision “Equally low to all REAL subs. There is not a sliding scale... one real sub is not higher or lower than another real sub.”


I still need this kind of wisdom for my weak mind. I still need to learn more. She is right. it is all about being a "real" sub.